now is 12 midnight i don't know why but i am feeling really uncomfortable, my breathing is notreally normal right now and my thoughts are not like really flowing well...what am i feeling is it pain...not sure, is it like a physical thing or is it a mental thing...nto very sure.....i think its a bit of both...well hope it doesn't last...well i have to hadn in my minor project on wednesday hope all goes well....woke up at 11 am today then was colouring my animation for likr 6 hours until 5 then went to school for china trip briefing hahah well going china on the 20th of july...hope i can sleep cos ian snores hahahah hope he dun snore until i cannot sleep for days... well felling excited to go but scared i miss the people here...especially sheralyn hahaha....well will get prepaid card and call or sms back so save abit of cash...yup well 8 days wah it will be 8 crazy days with ian thats long hahahaha hope i dun go crazy too.... hope the trip goes well.. hope sheralyn's moving house goes well too... yup minor to hand in on wednesday...confident to hand in and send for competition hahaha hope i can work harder this year for the FUSION show....well working hard now hahah but must work harder hahaha.... well i thinking will i be able to hold a steady designing/animation job will i be able to survive....haiz.. well hope so, but i can't just hope can i ? i have to work so i must motivate myself hahah.....
ok change topic today went for dinner with the guys and went all the way to jalan kayu....people jala kayu is now not the place to go for prata..... ok trust me not worth it the place has service that is not good and the food is not fantastic...dunno the money we pay go where haioz... well speaking of expensive i must save money now everything all must budget abit...save money very important haha i am a broke 20 year old hahaha...
well was thinking... i have lived 20 years of my life already and i was wondering if i have lived life well.... and well... i think so.. i am a happy person i do see a future for myself i have done things to help the people around me and yup i think that its been a good 20 years of my life i do know that i have not been a good boy in the past...made my mother cry...feel like crying everytime i think upon the number of times i did that... well causing other people to cry... i was an evil person in the past... but i guess changing for the better was a good thing and i am feeling better about myself yup... i think i have contributed abit to this world and i am not doing so bad at this point of time i know i am not great or perfect...but i guess i am alright lah hahaha....( i miss the people that have left me.... i appreciate the people who are with me and i loo forward to the people i will see... Nicholas Teo)
